Life Of A Creator In Emojis

When you’ve just STARTED your new beat:

When you’re tryna FINISH your new beat:
When you realize that at least it’s BETTER than your previous beats:

Of course, you can replace “beat” with blog/book/painting or any other terrifying creative endeavor.

Can you relate?

I finished another demo last week and you can listen to it by hitting play at the top of this post.

I’ll probably redo the arrangement for the final version, but I learned a lot from my practice this month.

And… that’s what it’s all about, isn’t it?

Progress & small steps!

Let’s keep going for our dreams 🙂

Love, Anja

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Happy Aging Everybody!

I’m turning 33 today and here’s why that makes me grateful AF.

When you grow older
You become so much more you
It’s so much easier to hear
The voice inside your head
The one that is yours
And not theirs

When you grow older
You care so much less about what people think
You don’t wonder half as much if they like you
Because instead, you ask
“Do I even like them?”

When you grow older
You realize that everyone is actually just winging it
At this thing called life
And that you have permission
To listen to your own gut first and foremost
At all times

When you grow older
You grow into who you actually are
Who you actually always already were
You grow into (wo)manhood
And it’s the most beautiful thing

When you grow older
You move on much quicker
From everything and everyone that just doesn’t quite fit
Friends, lovers, partners, jobs, opportunities

When you grow older you experience so more alignment
So much more flow
And so much more… letting go

And when you grow older, it means you’re still here
When you grow older, it means you’re still breathing
When you grow older…. it means you literally haven’t died yet

And when you haven’t, you have already won over many others for whom life was not that fortunate

In honor of my sister Lieza who never got to experience life after 33 ❤️ I love you and I’m proud of you.

HAPPY AGING EVERYBODY.

Don’t take it for granted.

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I Wanna Be A Producer When I Grow Up

I WANNA BE A PRODUCER WHEN I GROW UP.

What about you?

When I started my Facebook Page I called myself a “songwriter” because that term describes best where I feel I’m at in my musical journey.

A vocalist & songwriter who is learning how to write better songs as well as how to produce said songs.

But, for the coming year, my goal is to get to a level where I feel good about actually calling myself a PRODUCER (eek!).

Now you could say that anyone that dabbles in Ableton or any other DAW could call themselves a producer in theory, so this is more about a certain quality I want to work towards.

As much as it’s not my aim to become a “sound designer” or “mix engineer” I do want to get a level where I can arrange complete tracks that have a sick groove, great sound choices, an arrangement that is interesting from A to Z and soulful sexy vocals that make it pop.

And then, I’ll send it off to a mixing/mastering engineer for the finishing touches.

I’ve been taking 1 on 1 producing lessons in the past month and it’s been quite eye-opening for me to see and hear all the things I still need to work on to get to that level.

But, as much as it’s been confronting (in a good way), it has also given me a lot of hope that yes, I CAN, in fact, do this.

When you’re learning new things, you often get that “1 step forward, 2 steps back” feeling.

But as I was working on my new track today, I could hear a huge improvement compared to my last demo.

And dang, that feels good!

I definitely need some guidance and I need to put in a whole lot more hours, but … fuck YES, I CAN get there.

It sounds scary to say but I’m gonna name it and claim it right now:

I’M GONNA BE A PRODUCER WHEN I GROW UP.

What are you claiming?

PS: Next Sunday I will have my new track finished, yay!

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Permission To Practice

What is the kindest thing you’ve done for yourself lately?

For me, it’s giving myself permission to practice.

As much as I wish I was releasing my tracks yesterday, having the patience to say to myself “It’s OK to practice some more” has been freeing.

It’s OK to take more time.

It’s OK that I didn’t start out making epic beats out of nowhere.

It’s OK that I studied “vocals” and not “songwriting” and have some catching up to do.

It’s OK that it took a while to know what kind of music I wanted to make in the first place.

It’s OK that it takes time to figure out how this whole producing thing works.

It’s OK to be learning and sharing the process.

It’s all just freaking OK.

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When You’re Learning New Things

When you’re learning new things
Sometimes it feels like
Actually, you haven’t yet learned anything at all

When you’re learning new things
Sometimes it feels like
You have to start over
Completely from scratch

When you’re learning new things
Sometimes it feels like
All the things you thought you had already figured out
You actually maybe still hadn’t

When you’re learning new things
It can make you feel
VULNERABLE

You ask yourself
How much longer will it take?
All the hours I’ve already spent

Will I ever get there?
Will I ever learn the things that
Will enable me to fully express my creativity
The way I hear it in my head?

When you’re learning new things
Sometimes you just want to hide under the covers
And sneak away from all the things you still don’t master

But then you remember
That this is all part of the process
And you try again the next day

You just have to keep going
And BELIEVE ❤️

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