Is Your Art Your Best Friend Or A Scary, Big Monster?

 After almost 2 years of living in Singapore, I’m going back to the Netherlands, to pursue some new opportunities that have been knocking on my soul-door for a while now.
 
As I’m preparing for this big move, that is both exciting and challenging, I find myself with a lot of fun (that’s sarcasm) administrative tasks that come with changing houses, jobs and continents.
 
In the past weeks I’ve often found myself thinking:
 
“Yeah, I don’t have any time to make music right now”
“I’ll make music again when things have settled down”
“I just need to get A, B and C sorted first and THEN I will have mental space for music again”
 
And last week I realized yet again…yeah but, wasn’t music supposed to be my best friend? My partner in crime?
 
Wasn’t music supposed to be there for me in sickness and in health?
 
I still often find myself mentally positioning my art away from me, as though it’s some external goal that I need to achieve, and that I can only work on when I’m in an optimal state.
 
Only when I have at least 2 hours, can I work on my art.
Only when I have a lot of energy, can I work on my art.
Only when I have my sample library (and life) organized perfectly, can I work on my art.
 
In the past weeks, I’ve realized that that’s not what I want it to be like.

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Who’s Got Time For Feelings Anymore?

“What should I do with all this sadness”? I asked.
“Umm…write a song about it?” He said.

I was like… “WOAH”!
Such a novel concept!

Are you saying I should express my feelings in my music?
And like… sing about the stuff that’s on my heart?

That is just BRILLIANT!!

Hehe…okay okay, I’m exaggerating a bit here.

It’s not that I forgot about this writing – songs – from – the – heart – thing entirely!

But, as a super driven songwriter-creator woman, I have found myself in this place more than once.

This place of forgetting to actually start with the ESSENCE of the music.
This odd place of not really taking the time to connect to the SOUL of the song.

Because there is simply so much to learn.

About composition, production, recording, mixing. The list goes on.

Who’s got time for feelings anymore?

So… on this lazy drowsy Sunday, I figured I would turn that around.

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New Tune Alert: Want Love!

It’s finishing week!

Okay I know, I already said that last week… But there is finishing week and then there is ACTUAL finishing week.

Finishing week means: the week I INTEND to finish my song.
Actual finishing week means: the week I ACTUALLY finish it.

The week I will actually finish it, because I have a deadline.
The week I will actually finish it, because I will hate myself more than I will hate the song if I don’t.
The week I will actually finish it, because I’m not a quitter, yo.

Finishing week MAY include mild frustration and despair and pondering about the existence (or non existence) of my talent.

ACTUAL finishing week may or may not include the 2.0 version of that, binge eating and some form of alcohol, daily.

Just kidding, just kidding.

(Maybe).

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Songwriting Vlog 1! The Art Of Less…

Weee it’s my first songwriting vlog!

This week I am in song-finishing (read: tear-my-hair-out) – mode. Always so fun to hear your own song 5000 times and contemplate throwing your Macbook and Push out the window because you just can’t get it quite right… Oh well

I WILL finish it next week though and my focus will be the art of LESS. Trying make the arrangement better by working with the elements I already have (instead of adding more and more and more). Maybe that’s a good way to live in general….hmmm.

Check the video for a little sneak peek!

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