I, like most humans, am pretty freakin’ good at seeing all the things I still haven’t mastered or achieved in my life as well as in entertaining a general sense of “I am running behind”.
As if there really is such a thing… but hey.
So, before we run into the new year trying to “catch up” — how about standing still just for one moment and be proud of the things that we did PRETTY DAMN WELL this year?
We all know that self-hate is so 2014, so let’s start celebrating our wins a bit more shall we?
Here is my top 5 of the things I am proud of myself for in 2017.
THING 1: Making a bold choice to quit my job in Singapore and move back to the Netherlands.
THING 2: Moving into a new house in the Netherlands the day my plane arrived, without yet having a new job — yet trusting that I would find a new, more aligned one quickly.
And so I did.
Trusting myself and my own decisions as well as trusting that a net WILL appear when I leap, has been huge for me this year.
(I also did have some savings as an alternative ‘net’, mind you, but for me this was still a huge mental stretch which turned out great).
THING 3: Letting go of relationships and situationships (yes sometimes that’s the best description) that were no longer a fit, without trying to hold on to what mighta/coulda/shoulda been in a parallel universe.
Gracefully letting go of people while genuinely wishing them the very best is what love really is. As well as hugging yourself and practicing self-compassion when you’re in pain and knowing that you’re not a failure for feeling it.
THING 4: Seeking help from others on my musical journey. I have been taking 1 on 1 producing lessons in the past months and have now also connected with an awesome producer who wants to help me take my demos to the next level.
After a few years of isolation and trying to figure out my sound I am now welcoming “help” again with an open mind. That feels a bit scary, but mostly exciting and empowering.
THING 5: Habits, habits, habits! I’ve been intending to create a solid workout habit for years but only in the past 3 months have I finally been able to nail it.
I’ve done 2-3 kettlebell workouts a week for 12 weeks straight now, and I have a screenshot to prove it! (I use an app called Way Of Life to keep track, if you’re interested)
Honestly, I think I still sit on my butt way too much outside of that but it’s a good start.
Speaking of habits…. I’ve also been adding new demos to my Soundcloud (almost) monthly, working on my music daily and publishing a weekly blog/vlog since May.
BOOM! Owning it! 2017 wasn’t so bad after all 🙂
So, what are you most proud of this year?
Don’t forget to claim it, honor it and celebrate the shit out of it before you start to make your plans for the new one!Continue reading
I’m a vocalist and songwriter from the Netherlands and I’m looking for an awesome beatmaker/groove-ninja/producer/audiophile/mix engineer/tech whizzkid to help take my music to the next level.
I would describe the sound I want to create as soulful, groovy, poppy, dirty, melodic, warm, vocal deep house.
Here are a few songs/artists that I want to end up sounding like, obviously blended with my own unique flavor.
Gorgon City – Elevate: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ns6cC_N-bLE
Disclosure – What’s In Your Head: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qcm0YrzWMdw
Linden Jay –Be Like You: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bYj9DgugOWg
Fawks, Mediciennes: Say You Like It: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5TIaS8rLhJE
Anton Ishutin – Kick it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q5DvUcvgXhs
MO, Kant Remix – Walk This Way: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a_WVmdB0FXc
In the past year I’ve been creating demos that you can listen to on my Soundcloud. I’m still learning and my creative ideas don’t always turn out the way I hear them in my head, but this will give you an indication of my style so far:Continue reading
I have let go of a whole lotta things in 2017, including but not limited to countries, houses, jobs and various people.
Releasing the old to make space for the new seems to be my thing this year. And, because of that I have learned some powerful lessons for myself about the art of letting go.
In the beginning of this year, I went through a breakup.
It was a peaceful separation that we both knew was right.
And even though I didn’t initiate it, I very quickly accepted it as I knew in my soul that it was long overdue.
So this is what I would do to myself:Continue reading
I made so much music this week that I think my muse got fed up with me.
I got put in temporary music-prison.
As a result, I’m too tired to even open Ableton… let alone share a snippet of any of the 81 new song ideas I’m working on.
Today, music doesn’t want me to create it.
My voice doesn’t want me to use it.
Tutorials don’t want me to watch them.
Food doesn’t want me to make it.
And my couch doesn’t allow me to leave it.
I’m officially gonna stop using sounds called “Kitchen_Utensils_2718_abX.WAV” in my music.
Something weird keeps happening in the process of me analyzing music in an attempt to learn from it.
It goes something like this:
Just you wait.Continue reading