No Need To Fix What Is Beautifully Broken

January 7, 2018

“It’s safe to feel this way
No need to run away
No need to fix what is beautifully broken
You’re perfectly healing
In perfect time”

A lyric snippet of a new song I’m working on.

Recently I’ve been experiencing a lot of restlessness in my life and I’ve noticed that instead of actually using this feeling as fodder for songs, and thereby using music as a healer (I know, groundbreaking concept!) — I tend to want to run all over the place to fix said restlessness.

Oh, the irony!

Self-help books, inspiring TED talks, embarrassing apps that I shall not mention, creating more lists of goals to achieve and otherwise trying to distract or “recreate” myself so that I can bypass the things I actually feel and need to heal.

I wrote a blog a while ago about wanting music to be my best friend again.

Indeed… I want it to be my friend, my meditation and my prayer.

As much as I’m ambitious and want to learn about “all the things” (referring to arrangement and music production), right now I feel a strong pull to just go back to the basics of why I’m making songs in the first place.

So this week all I have been doing is this:

  • I ask myself: What is true for me right now? What is present? Then I write a few lines on paper about those feelings and thoughts.
  • I download a loop with some chords and drag it into Ableton.
  • I hit play on the loop and sing.

Just the loop and the feels. That is all.

It feels great and like a very kind thing to do for myself.

My focus for the coming period is to not start arranging a song or focusing on any technical aspects until I have EXPERIENCED the actual soul of the music for myself.

First the vocal and the heart and the lyrics, then the rest.

In the meantime, I am getting some help on board with the more technical aspects of producing, which of course, is perfect timing.

Can you relate to losing your connection to why you do what you do?

As soon as we notice we’re off the path, we’re awake enough to hop back on it XX

Anja Kicken

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