“But but but, this new track sounds so much more like me!”
The reason so much art never gets finished is because as creators we feel a strong cognitive dissonance around calling something “finished” when in fact it “could be better.”
How can we claim that a song is completed when the way we heard it in our head originally was far superior to how it eventually came out?
Miles Davis said: “It can take a long time to sound like yourself”. And, with every new track you start you think “Yes, THIS is going to be the one! NOW I’m starting to sound like myself! FINALLY, something is coming out of me that represents my real potential!”
But the problem is that once those tracks go through the same journey from the world of ideas to the land of form, they too will disappoint you on some level.
Because even though you do start to sound more like yourself as time goes by, that gap between the quality of your vision and your execution will never fully disappear.
In an attempt to hide from this very discomfort I have found myself:
- Starting 14 new tracks instead of finishing the 4 songs for my EP.
- Extensively researching plugins I don’t need (I’m proud that at least I end up not buying most of them, but I still feel the unreasonable compulsion to TEST THEM ALL.)
- Tweaking details in my songs for hours that were actually sounding fine in the first place.
- Pondering where I really stand in my development and to what extent I can trust my own opinion of my songs and to what extent I can trust others’ and how will I know the answer to this and what’s the meaning of life anyway?
Oh, all the sneaky ways Resistance creeps up on you! Dealing with the inner dissonance of calling your art ‘finished’ is not for the faint of heart. But I’m gonna do it anyway. What about you?
PS: The preview for track 3 is coming soon!